You know, sometimes you meet people who really have an impact on your life.  I've had the opportunity to meet and love some very special people who have changed my life forever.  Unfortunately, they all have had one thing in common..A very dark demon called cancer.  This past year, I've lost two of those who touched not only my life, but my heart..And have met the most amazing woman who will be forever in my heart and thoughts.  

She is the daughter of one of those that lost his life to the demon this year, and amazingly, she too has cancer. Terminal, yes, but a living, breathing, feeling person.  Terminal means the disease will win, not that one is already dead.  She is articulate, fascinating, emotional, intelligent, and I am so honored to call her and her family MY extended family.  

Renee is my inspiration.  She has a blog on here called Circling My Head that is absolutely amazing and very frank about her own battle with Inflamatory Breast Cancer (IBC) and she's helped me become so strong!  I love you, Renee!  This is for you and Henri and Joseph too.

Dark Dreams

Dreams of dark forboding beasts,
Running thru my mind,
Crawling deep within my soul,
My spirit yet to find..

I crouch and hide within myself,
Afraid of what will come..
The shadows overcomming me,
I try to flee and run.

But there is nowhere I can go,
That I can not be found.
My spirit slowly turns to see,
Another tear fall down.

A tear for loss, and one for pain,
And one for selfishness..
To have to say goodbye again,
For those that I will miss.

But I will fight this darkened beast,
Until my days are done.
Along beside my sweet dear friends,
Although they may be gone.

And I will do my best to win,
The war they couldn't fight.
I'll kick and scream, claw and punch,
To fill that beast with fright.

I'll chase him into the unknown,
No mercy will there be.
And only when hes dead and gone,
I will finally be free.